Hello Goodbye. :]

Now Playing: Love like Woe - The Ready Set

Wahaha. Uber late post due to freakin studies and internship. :] LOL. Now that internship is coming to an end... I feel bad. :] I'll miss them guys. I'll miss stuff. I'll miss Mondays with them.

12.08.2010 - :] LOL. My crush hugged me. Hella awesome. We talked for some time and all that. He kissed me on the forehead afterwards.. :] I think it's a sisterly thing. Wohoho. Been swooning over the event for some time but yeah... it's okay now. Stable again. LOL. Haha. :))

12.15.2010 - Paskuhan tomorrow @ school. First time to experience. :D I'm sort of excited.

12.23.2010 - Sched for Chirstmas party @ work. I'm thinkin' what I'm gonna do since I don't have money. >.< ROFL. Thinking if I will not join. :)) XD

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I hate guys to some extent. :] Seriously. Sure there are a couple of them that are nice out there, but gawddamnit the jerks and assholes ruin it for them.

Seriously. F U jerks.

***

My crush is courting somebody. I was initially hurt by it... But now I'm actually happy. :D LOL. Is that weird? ;p

Emo. :p

I think I have some sort of post retreat depression. :)) Hahaha. I haven't left everything to the past. I'm still thinking. And thinking. And then it hurts.

:c

Currently listening to: To Love Again - Dingdong Avanzado; Survive - Gabrielle

Again with the "what ifs". *sigh* I really should stop doing it. Because it's unhealthy.

***

"When faced with two choices... Toss a coin. It works not because it settles the question... But in the brief moment that the coin is in the air... You suddenly know what you're hoping for."

14. Stripes. Texts.

:) Crush texted me today. :] LOL. *blush.blush* I call it a text date day. :)

Twas fun. We never really text a lot except on some cases such as he's having girl problems. But today we just bonded like hella awesome. :D I guess he's still sad about the last time he courted a girl. :c *sigh* I sort of wish that I could take back telling him what she said. But that would also be wrong, wouldn't it? After all, it was his feelings that was on the balance scale.

I was weighing options. And it just felt like he had every right to know. After all, it was him that was exerting all the efforts.

I just felt sad. The girl was turning him down for reasons well... physical reasons I refuse to elaborate because it is very very trivial.

And I told him. And he confronted her. She was forced to admit. And then everything blew out of proportion.

Sometimes I'm still thinking if I had done the right thing. Maybe... Maybe he wouldn't be so hurt like he is now. Maybe he was gonna be fine without me interfering.

It just hurts. When he's hurting I feel it too.  And I don't want to. Because then I'd have to cry.

He's happy with my group messages. Says he learns a lot. And I'm happy he said that. ^_^

Hopefully he's gonna be okay though. :c Just not with her. Someone who's gonna be able to take good care of him...

Which is not me either.

Extremes.

I'm scared to be happy at work. Yesterday was awesome happiness filled and today was... well... SUCK-ish.

>.< I knew it. Sometimes I think it's not coincidental anymore. Like hello. ALWAYS.

When you start being happy one day at work... please expect that tomorrow will sort of be a BIG BITCH.

They should do feng shui on that place to get rid of that extremity thingy with emotions.

I wanna start ranting on every single thing that had gone wrong, but I don't see the point anymore. Like why rant? Not like it will do anything to actually help the situation be less frustrating. :p

Anyway. It's a weekend. And I should not think about work at all. Because... I'm gonna be a bitch if I do so. GAWD.


Dear enemies, please just die or something. I'm actually trying to be nice and you keep testing meh patience. Please stop. Or... IMMA BITCH SLAP YOU. End of story.

***

 Note to self: Please make sure you don't kill anyone. It's near Christmas and Santa might cross you out on the "I've been good" list.

Torture is OVER. :D

Love is the way life never ceases to amaze me. :] One day a roller coaster ride of emotions, the next a whirlpool that slowly sucks the energy out of you.

Today was fun. Like super fun. :) Defense is over and I can go to work all happy and giddy without any worry at all. :)

I'm pretty much excited for tomorrow. :D Last time it was overtime high time and we were all super super energized with kakulitan and madness. :p

I wanna start taking pictures. But how? :c

It's not sufficient that I freeze them memories in my head, 'cause with all the good stuff... They would take gigabytes to preserve. :D

I just love 'em friends. :D

***

Dear God:

I pretty much don't know how to start thanking you for everything. >.< You completely break my fall every single time. Thanks for everything. I really don't know how to say it. Whew. Thanks. Thanks. A million thanks.

10.10.10 :]

It's October! :D Tugz tugz tugz... Although it's semi-far, I'm pretty much excited for Christmas... :D I'll be free to roam around again soon enough. :D

>.> I'm excited for this sem to be over and for internship to be over. It's like... the super twisted roller coaster ride I've ever ridden in my life. >.> Too much issue. Too much drama. I've never felt like Cinderella til internship turned to months.


This year isn't entirely bad... Although... It's going to be remembered as the year filled with hurts. And hopefully, I'll never get to cross paths with some people ever again. It's one thing for me to be hurt, but it's always unforgivable for me that people hurt those that I love most.

:c Currently, I'm filled with too much what ifs and all that. And hopefully it's passing.


***


The good news is that... :) I'm near home. Closer than ever. It's been so long since I felt this feeling.

Your grace amazes me.


You've made me feel what it was to fall, and yet in the end You've chosen to break my fall.

I'll be okay, right? Protect me from straying away again.

I'll trust in Your promise that everything happens for a reason. They'll lead me to the best.

***

Random thought: I want to have a picture with munchkin and boycrush. <3 Super love. 

:] Thursday. 9/30/2010. Death due to Deadline. >.>

Wahaha. Like WTF. Seriously. If Kurt will be reading this he'll be damn pissed at me. :)) XD

September 30: Hell yeah, looking forward to you killing us graduating students. :))

I'm not really supposed to blog, but anyways doing it because I'm gonna vent out.

I think this was meant to happen because I was to find out how some people around me really are. Gawd. Didn't even know the person was so poisonous. I say person should be guillotined for being so bad. :c

And eww. Seriously. Something random: Dunno why some guys think they're ought to be liked when you're just damn irked at their face. And that's not being judgmental with how they look outside, 'cause see... their bad attitude oozes out of 'em and goes to their face... Hence, the reason why you are so irked looking at them.

Note: Please see attitude before dating me or my friends.

And yeah... you suck doing that "i'm pretending to be cool" thing. Doesn't really suit you.

Ew. We really hate you. :) LOL. Anger inducing. That's what you are. :) And I'm even more pissed at you because you think I'll like you. >.> Ew.

I'm sorry but I don't think that'll ever happen. Especially with everything.

Hate is such a light term for you. :)

aaannnywaaays. :) Will not dwell. See, being mean makes you ugly. I mean, *cough* being mean will make ME ugly... cause you know... you're sort of... well... *fill in the blanks*

:) As our division head states, "Moving forward..." So end of ranting. I feel super better now. :)

I'll just think of B.O.Y.C.R.U.S.H. <3 :p

♥ Love. ♥

"Don't put a question mark where God has put a period."

But nevertheless... I keep doing it.


    :) Sometimes I think if seriously you can put up with someone like me. When I don't even deserve to be put up with for everything I've done.


    Tell me I'm gonna be okay. That I can have redemption when I'm finally ready to stay with what is right and not look back.


    When I'm finally home.

Bad Luck. >.>

I'm normally very lucky. That's why I hate it when the period of the year wherein supposedly, "I believe" so that all my bad luck accumulated comes forth from Pandora's box and attacks me.

:c It's a sad thing whenever that time comes. :c *sigh*

But oh well... I should've taken the warning the Fey put for me. And I didn't. And it's my fault.

But I'll survive it. Hopefully. :] It's gonna be alright. It should be soon.

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Life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it.

Aja. :)

:] Mad Money = No Money

It's September! :D Gawd, time flies so fast. :D I'm excited for Christmas already. :]

I'm not entirely healed from doing impulse buying, but well... getting there. :p

>.> I'm doomed. Grades are like utter fail. And if I don't pull this shit, my parents are gonna kill me. >.> Crap. Holy crap. F**k. It's my fault, and now I'm sort of panicking but I have to breathe. Compose. *sigh*


"I'm gonna be okay... Hopefully."

Lots of deadlines. Like the MIS, the Prodman, the internship papers... :c Ack. The dreaded system. Why must life be like this. Ugh. >.>

Anyway, no time to be lazy. Positive. Positive. Aja aja.


***

On a random note, I cut my hair. 9/1/2010: Cut my hair out of impulse. No regrets. Bought lots of stuff with mad money. And now I have no money. All for the sake of beauty. >.>

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Work was fun. :] I am reminded why I fell in love with it in the first place. I guess the quote I read was right.


Things often look bad because of our attitude towards it.

Life is 10% of what happens to me, and 90% of how I react to it.

Dear God. Give me strength.


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I'm saving for a camera. :] Like serious shit. :] I'm excited to do Project 365. :] And of course, it'd be awesome-r to do it with a nice camera. :]

:] Soundtrip. Movies. ♥

I will be super happy once everything ends. Everything busy ends. >.> Being busy sucks. You don't get to have fun. Pshw. BS.

Anyway. Hahaha. I'm supposedly concentrating on studying cause my grades are... doomed. :] This is actually a first time for me to have my grades flunk like that. And it's unacceptable. I refuse to take it.


Gawd. I'm prolly the dumbest kid evar.

>.>


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However, as disturbed as I am... my spirit cannot be broken. Especially with all them good movies coming up and the soundtrip is getting better. :] Nyahahaha.

I'm excited for:
-> Despicable Me
-> Legends of the Guardians: Owls of Ga'Hoole
-> Going the Distance


:c I'm sad 'cause I haven't seen revenge of the kitty galore. I'm waiting for Honey to see it with me. :c If I can't watch it in the cinemas... I'll just wait for the DVDs. :c


Seriously. I gotta stop.

Focus: Studies (As If).

Saturday, I Miss You. :]

>.> I missed these kinds of Saturdays. :] I usually have classes in the afternoon on Saturdays, however... the Heaven above is good and have permitted that it is a holiday.

Thank you, God.

It is a happy day. Indeed.

I have lots of stuff to do tho, so... yeaa. We die. :)

Itinerary! :D (To get me motivated.)

1. Do Val's long time delayed assigned project part. >.> I really have to apologize to Val for the long time delay. >.> Ack, I think he is actually thinking that I am stupid or wut. Well, maybe not really but... I feel stupid for not having done the work. So. Kill.

2. Study on database and cisco. I would have to be really disturbed with the grades. Like crap. I can't show this to the rents. They'll kill me. :p So, I hafta catch up with things. Like real bad.

3. Cut sleep or do the HS stuff. I used to have a really strong resistance to the call of sleep, but now... one call of sleep, I give in. XD I can't even stay up 2 am onwards. When in HS I can get by with an hour or two of sleep.

4. Fix room. Hello. This is like some kind of inhumane habitat. I don't know how my room gets the talent of messing itself up. I swear, it's not my fault.

5. Fix blog layout. :) Really really long time postponed already and I think I have acquired enough skills in web dev to make adjustments and do creative work.

6. Bath my dog. He stinks. That's it.

7. Read read read. Everythin. Startin from the project code down to the database stuff.

It's all I can think of doing as of now. And I think it's already pretty much heavy for one day. :]

Aja. Aja. :)

*I'm excited to see Cats and Dogs: Revenge of the kitty galore and Despicable Me. :] Yea, I know. Movies here is so late. Sucks.

The Happening is freaky. >.>

I was supposed to sleep early, but I saw 'The Happening' on TV. I really didn't get the entire thing, however... it freaked me out.

I seriously don't like films like that. Like something bad is spreading and it makes people crazy. Like resident evil crazy. >.> Dunno if I'm just too paranoid, but... I really really freaked out.

Seriously, is it possible?

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The only thing I liked about the film was Zooey Deschanel. She's cute. I thought I've seen her before, and when I googled it... Yeap. She was the girl in '500 days of Summer'. I even thought she was Katy Perry. :D :p They look a lot like each other. :) Mhmm.

<3 Zooey Deschanel is love. :) Uber cute.

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Short and boring post. Gotta hit the sheets. Tomorrow, work. ;)

Exam week. Drudgery.

:] Lol. I seriously don't have the right to complain 'cause I got plenty of rest like hell yeah last week and this weekend. Partly cause I'm sick and well, I got my ID from Dansalan. :D

Even got into some miniscule anger management event with a random person on the street. Well, he's some sort of asshole maniac commenting randomly on people specifically girls, walking. So... yeah. Kicked his ass. And flashed the big F U. Foh real. If people gonna comment like some sexist shit, they better make sure I'm nowhere near the vicinity.

***

So not happy. :] Exams suck. Cause you have to study. >.> LOL. Actually, I miss school. In all seriousness, I've never had this fun studying 'cept when I was still in gradeschool where we never had to memorize gazillion crap and just color our way to our grades. >.> Why must everything be so complicated??? :D

***

8/8/2010: Met Tita's future awesome husband. :] He's kewl. Like omg. :D Hahaha. He totally aced the introduction to our fam. 10/10. Wooo.

Hopefully GB would ace it too. :D And everyone is happy. :D

I think I'll get some light Zzzs. >.> Ack.

Do One Thing A Day That Scares You

Of course, the one that inspired me on that quote was none other than my water bottle from ages ago. :) I broke the other one that is exactly the same but since I really loved the design, I bought a new one like months or even a year ago (I can't really recall) and it has that nice quote there alongside the others that said:

"Do one thing a day that scares you."

I think I wasn't scared at all. Just thinking about how possible it can be that the pain is intolerable scares me. But the whole idea of donating blood isn't scary to me.

But the thing is... after the donating event, I felt proud of myself. I mean, I have shunned injections and all needle stuff since I was in gradeschool. I avoided vaccinations... all those stuff. And now I'm sort of okay with it.

If that is not enough to convince you, well here are the 10 reasons why you should donate blood:

	You will get free juice and cookies.
	You will weigh less — one pint less when you leave than when you came in.
	It's easy and convenient — it only takes about an hour and you can make the donation at a donor center, or at one of the many Red Cross mobile blood drives.
	It's something you can spare — most people have blood to spare... yet, there is still not enough to go around.
	Nobody can ask you to do any heavy lifting as long as you have the bandage on. You can wear it for as long as you like. It's your badge of honor.
	You will walk a little taller afterwards — you will feel good about yourself.
	You will be helping to ensure that blood is there when you or someone close to you may need it. Most people don't think they'll ever need blood, but many do.
	It's something you can do on equal footing with the rich and famous — blood is something money can't buy. Only something one person can give to another.
	You will be someone's hero — you may give a newborn, a child, a mother or a father, a brother, or a sister another chance at life. In fact, you may help save up to three lives with just one donation.
	It's the right thing to do.

 :) So donate blood, save a life.

*Credits to givelife2.org for reasons why you should donate blood. ;)

Airbender movie and procrastinating.

LOL. Just watched The Last Airbender with the rents and sisters. It was alright. It's not like something you can say WOW at. It just hasn't reached that level. I prefer the cartoon version of it actually. I guess when you really try to cramp long things up in an hour or so (sorry but yeah, look at Harry Potter, Eclipse, etc...) You really can't capture the magic.

The poster is awesome though. :) LOL. My youngest sister likes Dev Patel. :p Felt like I saw him somewhere but I can't remember... I'll google.

ROFL. He's the guy from the Slumdog Millionaire. >.> Now I know. >.> He's also dating is co-star from the aforemention film... Ah... Okay. Okay after seeing shots from different angles... I guess I sort of see the small light where my sister comes from. But still, I don't crush on him like she does. He just looks... a little too like my other sister's classmate in HS. >.>

***

Moving along... :] I'm supposed to be doing my DBMS homework stuff. I've done some parts already, but there are still some left. And I need to have them done before Tuesday. >.> Hello. Or else I'd be cramming Tuesday night like 12 ish onwards. And that kind of schedule sucks.

I <3 sleep too much. Procrastination is a friend. :p

***

My mom's gonna be somewhere. So dad's gonna be watching over us. I guess this means like a more strict curfew. Ick. That'd be real bad. Sometimes I have the habit of floating somewhere that time passes too fast.

HEY it's unfair. Why does it pass so fast when stuff is happy? >.>

***

It's 2 am. Gotta catch Zzzs. Or else I'd be too sleepy to wake up early tomorrow.

It's gonna be a super busy and fun day.

Yay! Frosh integration today. :] Nyahahaha. Didn't come to work. Woot. Vacation. :]

Seriously lately, I'm getting bored with work. School is even more interesting than work. >.> Like WTF. I need to get out of here. Well, it's not entirely boring... but... well, 70%? :p

7/22: :) Did crazy ass shit by walking from our school to the main gate when it was raining! Flood yeah. And we were effin soaked. :)) Hahaha. Val is awesome! :D Thanks, Val. :) Then super funny stuff on the jeep. :)) With A.K.A. Sam Milby. XD Hahahaha. It's gonna be an inside joke to both of us now. LOLOL.

I'm excited for the integraaation. :) Lalala. Hopefully it also rains in the afternoon, so it'd be epically awesome to the frosh. :) I mean, the entire thing is well sort of a hassle... But when you get done with it, it's like you finally belong. And that's what counts. :)

Hopefully it's gonna be good. :)

P.S. Saw an ugly fat person last 7/22. Puhleaze. Go away. She actually had the nerve to go like super high heels. Ew. Ick. Sickest thing ever. I wish you the best that your heels don't give up on your weight. :p

Darlin, you are... the only inception? WUT.

LOL. Super fun day. :] Got to watch 'Inception' with the fam and all. :]

I was pretty much worried that I'd have tons of homework... But I just checked the groups and hoorah. No homework, test whatsoever. But good luck on Tuesday. That'd be like WUT.

Now I'm sort of getting geeky with the film. >.> My rents were like 'super confusing movie'. And I'm like: "What are you talking about? It was like the brainiest flick I've ever seen."

Okay maybe it's not like entirely smart like a documentary but hell, the way it was conceptualized... AWESOME.

I've never been really the one for action films... But I loved this. :] Totally brainy guy film. XD More more. :D

I was already eyeing the poster when I was @ the mall from work. :] And I got to watch it the same day. Lalala.

I'd be really happy till tomorrow. Well, hopefully. At least till... well, doomsday Tuesday comes around.

Students will be dying by then. Mass depression due to tests and deadlines. :p

Random thing: I think when I finally get to be somebody successful... I'll make sure that old people get to be placed somewhere really nice. Where they'd really be comfortable. I don't like them on the streets and working via car wash or anything related to labor or worse, begging. They're OLD people. They should be retired and enjoying themselves. Not working still.

Remind me. Remind me. Tell me to look back unto that promise.

Tearjerker moments.

When I was in 2nd grade, my mom would give me rides to school every day.

One day she came across an elderly man who'd walk an entire 1 mile into town to get to his house. He did this every day, during the middle of the frozen winter.

Every day, for months, she'd go out of her way to give him a ride to his house. 

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The website of gives me hope really gives me the chills sometimes. Bigla na lang I find myself crying. >.> WTF.

I'm never really the type that has faith in people. I'm always thinking they'd fail or do something really really nasty behind other people's back. And... 95% of the time, I'm right. So you can't blame me if I have set this kind of thinking that people will always have some sort of dirty secret that can be really hurtful.

So I always save my heart. I trust, but I don't completely trust.

But reading these kinds of things... restores my faith in people. Maybe not in an instant, but gradually... I know it'll be built again.

ID. Jake. :] LOL.

They're completely unrelated. But so what. LOL.

:[ I'm sort of sad... Cause I lost my internship ID. >.> Gawd. So stupid. I don't even remember what happened last time I had it. >.>

And I don't wanna go to Boni Avenue anymore. Cause I'm lazy... It's hot... and it's dang far. >.> Sweating is so not my thing. Yes, it's completely healthy and all that crap... but the icky feeling it leaves you... DAMN.

Hahahaha. I just read my email. LOL. I'm subscribed to US Weekly... and... :] Jake and Vienna -- SPLIT. :] Woo...

Jake is gonna be mine. ROFL. What. She does not deserve him. >.>  LOL. Well, I didn't like her. So yeah. Got dibs on Jake. :] Loves. Super loves. ^_^

I'm thinking of my ID again. :c *sigh* Don't wanna go to Boni. >.> Ack. Of all the things. Why my ID. (Wut? So I'd rather have my phone lost? XD NO FRIGGIN WAY)

Revisions make me prouder. :]

LOL. So freaked out. :)) I'm beginning to be a greater nerd. :) Woo. And super proud of it.

XD My favorite font has changed. It's not Calibri/Trebuchet/Verdana anymore.

But hello. No other than the font I am using to type things right now. :)) LOL. I used to dislike what it looks like... But I feel typing on this font gives me a boost on my creative spirit.

Bring back the thesis days, baby! :D

I just got done with my revisions. :) Yay! Val said it's getting better. :D Taadddaaa. :) I cannot be anymore prouder with myself. :) Nyahahahaha. Too happy and energized right now.

FYAP is my acronym 'For Your Approval Please'. :)

Wait. Imma work on those minor revisions left. :)

Blogger is getting AWESOME-R

LOL. Blogger is getting awesome-r. With new ways to customize my blog, I don't think I regret moving back here. :]

 It's 4 AM. And I'm not asleep yet. I got class tomorrow. But I need the closing statement for my proposal. >.> Crap.

It's skay. I just hope I don't oversleep. I haven't done all nighters since... well... since ancient times of highschool. >.>

Ack. Hopefully I won't be so sleepy tomorrow and I won't have bags under my eyes. Hate that.

I'll catch Zzzs if the closing statement comes to me. If not, well... I will torture myself. LOL.

Well, the nonsense on this post is increasing. So... I'd have to end it, or else I'd be LMAO tomorrow reading this.

Sleep Won't Come to Me.

1.44 AM. Harhar. Supposedly sleeping since I got internship tomorrow. Hell. But sleep won't come easy tonight.

>.> Ack. It's just been one week after class and suddenly there is an influx of what is supposed to be read blah blah blah... What is wrong with you people. You torture students so bad. :))

But it's skay. I mean. LOL. I am actually using psychology on myself trying to convince me that everything is going to be okay.

BUT SERIOUSLY I DON'T KNOW IF IT WILL.

I got to rewrite the whole journal I think. Well... Not actually rewrite the WHOLE thing. But... well... T.T I don't know!! I'm stressed.

Then we got this recitation I have not read anything about just yet! WTF.

Then we've got this whole 'I am telling you now that you are producing a system' from the profs. T.T These systems will follow me for the entirety of my life.

Fatkid is struggling. >.> Now she got a big deadline for a major system that will define the life and death of her internship.

I'll be positive. Aja.

Classes. Summer's over.

Tomorrow I'm gonna be a senior babeh! :)) LOL. This is going to be my last year. I think. If I ace my subjects and don't have suckish grades... Then I'm unto my last year. :c Feels sort of sad but also happy. :)


Last sem grades sucked. Just found the paper where my grades are printed. They suck. >.> *sigh*


Anyway. Woot. Finally got done with my practicum report. It's just 12 pages, but... they're really awesome in my perspective. I'm sort of looking forward to the journal. 'Cause I think I'll go all out on that. :D


Till 7:30 tomorrow. >.> Arr. Hopefully I'm not too tired to be updating stuff. :)


***


Oooh. I fixed mah room today. :) Looks way better than it did before. And cooler. I think when you actually don't fix things and just stuff them around the room... The room becomes stuffy that you feel uncomfortable sleeping. >.>


Just a theory. Just a theory.


***
 
I will miss internship tomorrow. Hopefully dad will updated me with the latest things there. T.T I will miss it super. I'm only going there like 3 times a week because of my classes. Less fun time with dad, Sir Carlo, Sir Rino. >.> Is going to miss them badly. :c


***


I'm supposed to be sleeping. But I am having fun talking to Val about the anime Lunar Legend Tsukihime. :)) hahaha. Never liked the main pairing. Always ticked me off. And apparently, the character I want for the main character is like a side character only... So yeah. >.> Anyway I don't care. :)) Still like them cause she's cute and he's like... uh... violent (?) WTF. XD


I'm prolly gonna go head to bed. Cause I'm gonna be late for DBMS2 if ever. :) Hopefully I won't be classmates with... *censored* :))

June is awesome.

June is friggin awesome. :)) I got moved from my original desk, so... no one's sort of there. I left my printing shop. :)) XP


I don't think I'll be at my new desk permanently though. Although I would really love it if I could stay there permanently. :)


*sigh* Classes are coming in. Not happy. Not looking forward to it actually. Just looking forward with the money and everythin. But other than that... Hmm. No.


deadlines to meet. people to get along with.


Hmn., Hopefully I'd be done with most of my subjects... so there's a lighter load for me the next semester.


Then I'll be graduating. And then batshit. I'll get a job after I have gotten all those lost sleep back. LOL.


Anyway. I should really be sleeping now since I'm going to work tomorrow. >.> Arr. I'm just an intern but I already am feeling what work is going to be like.


Hopefully it's not as dreadful as I had imagined. I mean, I'm loving internship... But there are really these "off-days" wherein I just want to be lazy. and declare a do nothing day. I don't like it too, but sometimes things just become too dull and repetitive that I want to put them on one corner and delay them for another day.


Nyahahaha. Be headin to bed. Or else am gonna be late tomorrow.


Like most of the time.


But seriously. I need to cut that out.

Supposedly worried.

LOL. I didn't know that the practicum report is supposed to be submitted tomorrow. WTH. What is this conspiracy ah? Where did this info come from? T.T


:)) Tomorrow's enrollment and yea. It's gonna be frickin awesome. It should be. I mean. LOL. I got one day off from internship. Lalala. Awesome.


Anyway I have decided to not coerce myself into doing some report that will only be considered trash. No way. Effort in typing on my keyboard you know. Hand is normally lazy. :)) I'll do pass it during some point. Just not tomorrow. Besides. Printer is like busted.


***


Bonded with Val yet again. Two consecutive days. :)) Hahaha. And I miss him muchies. I thought I was the only one who enjoyed hanging out with him and talking crazy. He does too. Just that he doesn't wanna admit it because he's like this superman cool boy.


Will probably post the convos around some time. When I get bored. :)) Bwahahaha.


Hopefully I will not get into trouble with that report. Or else. Dang. We go sh*t bricks.

:') I'm NOT perfect.

"Pero if it matters, I know I'll be on team Aina always." --Honey.

You just pwned this part of me.


I don't know why I'm blessed with the talent of being a jerk and a b*tch at times. Wrong things come out, and then BAM. Everything explodes into pieces that are hard to glue back together.


Then suddenly, everybody becomes my enemy.


LOL. Well, not everybody technically. Just some of my friends. :c Makes me sad though. I realize some of what they do really irritates me and I just burst out of my nice bubble.


If they don't like me irate... well, we're sort of on the same page cause I never liked nor will I ever like it when I'm irate. I turn to some sort of animosity that is hard to control.


I'm full of mistakes. But Honey always knew what to say. And then all my anger dissolves to tears and then I'm not angry anymore.


I seriously don't know what I'd do without you, Honey. :) Thanks so much. I think my soul will be unredeemable without you. You restore my patience. iheartyou.

Finding my way back. Milestones. :)

I think I've been missing out so much in life. :) 


I thought things wouldn't fall back to their places once they fell out of that greater jigsaw that makes up my life.


But today... Amazingly, they did.


Well, I think it started a week ago. But I only realized it today. :)


It's amazing how prayers can really clear up much of the confusion that fogs up my completely rational brain.


I think... I'm on my way to forgiving other people for things they did. That's usually the problem with me. I try getting even most of the time... And that's when I call things quits.


Without getting vendetta, I'm seriously pissed as hell.


Thanks God, for today. So much.


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LOL. I reached some of the milestones in my life. I commuted to somewhere real far, and dang I'm proud of myself for attaining that. Take into account that I haven't been to the place at all. :) But hell yeah. I survived. Awesome. Epic awesome.


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I'm appreciating life more and more. Suddenly, I don't know how but... some moments just pass real slow. Like, life is seriously giving me the opportunity to exercise freezing the moment inside my head. :D


Things are just way too awesome right now. I lack the words really.


So let's just say... Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero! :D

On ATM machines, Dream jobs, Birthdays, and crappy sh*t.

It's nearing my birthday! Tralala. :) I'm one year older again. *sigh* it just seems like yesterday that I was this carefree kid without a care at all in the world, just doodling my ass off and all that.

At least I'm a bit wiser... I think.


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I feel embarrassed whenever I walk past an ATM machine. LOL. It's not that I don't have my own savings account, it's just that... well... There's a weird thing about it when I was just a kid. (digress for a while, I just remembered that I have not put any money lately on my savings account.)

Anyway back to my story... :)) LOL. When I was a kid... I didn't know where all those money that the ATM spits come from. I just know that it gives out money when you insert this card. I dreamed of having that ATM card when I was kid. Just so I'd get millions of money INFINITELY. LOL.


And then there's that withdrawal process of money. Whenever my auntie or my mom withdraws, I'd come with them too just to peek at the machine. I didn't know back then how the machine counts the money it gives out. So... I... thought banking people are inside the machine. And when someone withdraws from the screen pressing those side buttons, there is also a monitor inside and a person looks at it whenever someone withdraws and then counts the money and finally... gives it from the money slot. >.> O.O imagine a hand going out of that money slot to give you your money. like... WTF. O.O


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I had my awesome career when I was just a kid. No. I didn't dream to be a doctor like other kids did because they were happily playing with plastic injections and fake stethoscopes. I dreamed to be...




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a cashier. :D awesome.


XD again. money. Weren't we just talking about ATM machines before? :)) I thought back then that when you were a cashier, all those money them people pay you for the goods they have bought are YOURS. Then you just keep putting all those money in. Inside that cash drawer that opens when you press buttons go to some universe where they dump the infinite money. And you are free to take them. O.O

Speaking of cashiers anyway... I am reminded. That sort of laser thing wherein you swipe the stuff you buy... My mom used to tell me that I am not allowed at all to run my hand over it. Because if I do, I'd get myself barcoded. And she will not be able to take me home.

I believed that whole stuff... and just found out it was a total lie when I was 16. Harhar. I closed my eyes and held my breath as I swiped my hand over the square thing. I was already prepared to take the risk of living in the supermarket till someone buys me. Just so I could take that chance of swiping my hand on the square thing. EPIC.


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I'm going to be 19 and still yet to find out what other lies my parents have told me.


The police will apprehend you if you don't finish your food, right?


RIGHT???? Or was that a lie too?


I finish my food just so the police won't apprehend me. Maybe that's why I'm a fat kid too.


Screw you police who apprehend people who don't finish their food.


I'm going to be 19. And I'm wiser. I think. =))

Programmer Syndrome. :)

Hahaha. YanYan just gave that term kanina.


'Cause we're sort of sick. Yep. Programmer Syndrome. Currently diagnosed of it.


See, we have this sort of thesis thing going on. :) And yeah, we are coding the program. The thing is...


There are errors in it. Which is normal. But... what is NOT normal is the fact that we... well, technically I... I am not just sure of YanYan... But I have this compulsive thing to rid my program of that error.


I cannot sleep because of it. I'd stop thinking of it for a while, and then... when I get to bed... It comes out. I can't stop thinking about the logic gates, the error trapping... those kinds of stuff. Weird, huh? Tell me about it.


>.> T.T I hate it. I guess I am not going to expect a decent long sleep till the whole defense is over. :D


But I guess this kind of setup is okay. After all... IT spells STRESS. =))

Shakey's Date. :D

Haha. :D Super happy with today.

Well, it didn't really start out okay. Things went downhill as soon as classes resumed for me. The going to Mindoro thing for our BLF seems to be a very bad decision I made.

Ewan. I wish it's not a spur of the moment feeling. Kasi those feelings tend to get worse at a very fast pace.

I don't know where to start with my school work. There's a lot of stuff going on and we're going to retreat soon.

So technically, I've just gone to school for a few days and then I'm going to be away again.

THE F. How can I expect myself to monitor all the lessons I've missed if these extra-curricular activities keeps getting in the way?

I'm too frustrated. I flunked our economics exam. I didn't know sh*t.

Now I hate the fact that I went away.

Risked everything for one subject. HATES THE DECISION.

I was fine till this trip came along.

I'm getting angry again. But I will digress. Breathe in. Breathe out.

***

Good thing there was...

It was an unplanned dinner. Me and Honey were going for something smaller till the kuya Theo at Shakey's enticed us (yes, I remember his name since he was really friendly and amusing). And the next thing I knew, we were already sitting there looking at the menu and placing our orders.

The mojos really made me feel better. Me and Honey got to talk... And I ranted as usual. It's amazing sometimes whenever I think about it how she manages to stand by me. Even though I'm such a drama mama. We also ordered one pizza bianca which I had not managed to take a picture of since it was served immediately when it arrived. SO yea. Too bad.


My taste buds still taste the pizza bianca. I love it. Just like I love the 3 cheese pizza at Pizza Hut. :D


02/09/10. :) Bad day that ended as a good one. Thanks to Shakey's. :D

>.> O.O A dozen of reactions.

>.> Yeah. So I rented them DVDs and VCDs.


I've gotten over my fear of horror stuff and all that sh*t. But one week of being in the mountains and... O.O WTF.


I'm freaked out again easily.


I just watched Haunting in Connecticut with my Ate Mari and... O.o gawd. I took a longer time playing tetris than watching the whole movie. >.>


T.T So yeah... I sort of not really know what the movie is all about. CAUSE I EFFIN FREAKED OUT AND DAMN.


it's night and I feel like I can't sleep.


O.O Just ranting. Hoping this would make me feel much much better about stuff.


Once again, I'm back to stage one. Immunization of scary stuff. >.> (All my hard work has gone to crumble...) :(

Stronger.

I have to take back what I said in my last post.


I'm talking about the trip I made.


Yes. It was tiresome, and nearly unbearable... But now that I think about it... The experience was worth all the hassle.


There was a CR. A CR that has no door and leaves for walls.


We stayed in a school. Has a roof, no door and windows with broken wooden parts.


We took a bath outside where everyone can see us.


It was entirely bad from the perspective of someone like me. Someone used to technology, used to a life that is inside a comfort zone. A very very comfortable one at that.


Pero I thank God that He sent people to tell me to go for the trip. There were a lot of my friends who didn't want me to go... But I still did... And I think there's not a bit of regret left inside of me for going there.


I am overall, happy with things.