This Date is Remembered.

I'm too sleepy to actually post everything that has happened today. Prolly tomorrow or so.


All I'm gonna say that it was epic.


Today gets a star for being epic awesome. :]


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"Baby, I want to be your favorite hello and your hardest goodbye."

 :-/ Sana. Sana. Sana.

I'm Officially A Graduate; This Post Just Had To End About HIM again;

Hahaha. Awesome. I thought I had died halfway during the ceremony because at one point it became so boring that my mind had floated away and I could barely understand what part has been done and what is currently happening.


LOL. Joke. :)) I was thinking a lot during the ceremony. Like what comes after that and all. Will life be so unfair and harder than it already is right now. >.>


As I transition into the real world, I'm getting the creeps. I don't know how well I'd fare and all. I don't like it when I disappoint other people, and especially myself.


I have high standards for myself and I'm scared of not being able to make it.


Is that weird? :-/


Fortunately, I have companies that are seeking my employment. Thank God. :D Can't thank Him enough for that. I mean, other people are having a hard time finding work and here I am with choices.


No. I'm not bragging. I'm just stating how God has blessed me a lot.


Maybe I'm just not lucky with my love life, but everything else? It's like... GIVEN STRAIGHT FROM ABOVE.


Speaking of love life, I'm doing better. I'm realizing that running away from the fact that he'll have this special place always, would make things harder so I'm trying to just live with the feeling.


The Heartbreak Notebook I have is a good therapy. As I said there,

"You said I'd find someone better, but will you find someone like me? Sabagay, I just realized. You're not looking for someone like me. You're looking for something else, along the lines of rotten apples and such." 

It's just me who's insisting for you to seek what's best. Pero you have convinced yourself to settle for something less, and I guess I can't do anything about it, no? :D


Wala lang. Nakakatawa na I raise questions and I answer them myself. :p


So smart. Like a boss. ROFL.


The things you do to me, boy.

Nervous Breakdown

:] Hahaha. I'm gonna have two interviews tomorrow and I'm seriously nervous. :)) Hahaha. IKR. I've got the morning while commuting to the place to think about it and I'm worrying tonight.


*breathe.breathe*


I'm gonna die. Out. Of. Nervousness.


Hopefully I can sleep well and you know, let tomorrow worry for itself.


It's the second interview that's gonna be held in the afternoon that I'm worried about actually.


I dunno how it's different from the past interviews. I'm thinking probably because it's the second interview I'm gonna take, the expectation, the new location, the new company, or the fact that I don't know if they're conducting the exam after the interview or the interview is the make or break event. O.O


Since there's no exam, I don't have any idea whatsoever what it's like to be there. Soo.. Yeah. I die.


Plus I have been badly traumatized by the panel interview in a scary place before this. XD HAHAHA.


Hopefully God made me undertake that kind of interview to better prepare me for what else is coming. I'm just praying everything will work out to be just fine tomorrow. ^_^


It'll be okay. Hopefully the second company's interviewer is somewhere near how Ms. Anna is.


Goodnight, blog.

I've Pictured It Out, You Know?

I've started writing on the little notebook I bought with Honey.


Kahit papano eases shit. :]


Hay. I've been doing a lot of thought lately. I don't know what I intend to do with things.


I've pictured it out before, but right now... It seems so blurry and far away.


I wanna break this doubts. And I know I'm gonna be okay and I'll be able to succeed in whatever shit I'm choosing to do.


Ewan., I want to know where this fear is coming from so I can terminate it. It's bugging me and I don't like it. At all.


Hopefully, I'll find a work that I love and pays good. :]

Random Thing.

Pedro: Juan, bakit mo hinihintay mahulog yung bayabas imbes na kunin mo? 

Juan: alam mo kasi, hindi lahat ng kukunin mo talagang mapapasayo, minsan kailangan mo talagang maghintay para malaman mo kung talagang para sa'yo.

--Sana nga pagkatapos ng pag-aantay kong ito, malaman kong para sa akin ka talaga. :p NAKANAMPUCHA O. :))

Flashbacks; Missed

3.15.2011: I went to a company interview. :p LOL. And I died. End of story. It was the most freaky and scary thing I have experienced just yet. :)) It's like 'heavy aura' surrounding the area. >.> I buried the memory in my subconscious levels.


"Accounting is no different from IT... Accounting, it exercises and practices you the discipline to be correct."

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3.16.2011: :] Hahaha. Got my grades. LOL. I aced the shit men. :)) 4 line of 9s and an 8 that is bordering to 9. HRM. But it's skay. I can't actually pull it up on a high level considering I sucked during midterm. Soo. Happeh.


Went out with Honey. :) Haha. Super talked and all. It was nice. When I converse with Honey, it's anything under the sun. Happy stuff, sad stuff, embarrassing stuff... Everything.


"When do you get over someone?"


"Maybe when you let yourself."


Ewan. Ako lang ba yun? Is it just me that's hindering myself from getting over you? Siguro. Maybe. Perhaps.


1 week, 2 days without me trying to converse or even be okay with you. Akala ko din I'd be 'you got me begging, begging baby please don't go'. =))


Nakakainis lang. Not because we don't talk anymore pero because of the fact na ambabaw ng pinagsimulan kung bakit hindi na tayo nag-uusap.


Putang ina lang. :)) Is this how you're gonna end? Sana naging mas dramatic man lang, mofo.

Dress Fitting and an Impromptu Movie Date.

Wahaha. :] Honey and me went to my dress fitting today. ;)


I can't post the dresses pics 'cause that would spoil the fun come graduation day. Only she has seen it, so she wouldn't be so surprised anymore when the day comes... But anyone else, TADAH! :D


Haha.

LOL. Seriously, it was Honey's first time

to ride the LRT train. :p

Lots of fun. :] After the fitting we opted hanging out at MOA, however we thought it'd be expensive to watch a movie there 'cause we're like... Impromptu 'we should watch a movie' decision. Sooo... We went back to the South.

'Cause I was wondering where the LRT goes

when it reaches the end. :p

Anyway... Going back to the South... :]

We've chosen to watch "Red Riding Hood". Pictures are not mine, k? Just searched them on yahoo. :p

The plot isn't strong actually. It's something movie critics wouldn't find to be good. It'll be like cliche for them. But oh well, the boys fighting over Amanda Seyfried made the movie worth it. :"> :p Hahaha.

Like...

Yes. I really had to post it because...

Peter kissing Red Riding Hood Valerie

was hot. ;)

<3 LOL. Shiloh Fernandez makes it to my crush list; however... Damon from Vampire Diaries still tops it. :p

<3 But of course. :">

I Really Should Avoid Heartaches Because...

Because they break my bank. :))


Hahaha. Seriously. :)) Well, this time wasn't as worse as before... :]

Hahaha. Cute eh?
Cherry Wallet - Php 25 (Srsly)
Cute Panda Bear Keychain - Php84 (LOL. More expensive than the wallet itself)

I couldn't resist its handiness. :] LAWL.
Been looking at it for a few days now, so I bought it.
No regrets. :]
The name is awkward though. LOL.
"Wet n wild"... >.> Like WTF?
It's a CURLASH, okay??!

Just sent out my job applications. My eyes are shutting down on me. >.> Crap.

I need to get to bed. :) Be seeing Honey tomorrow. Bonding. ^_^

I miss you, I really do. But I can't always be running in your direction, baby.

Happeh Birthday, Justina. :o3

Haha. :] Today = Super fun and madness.


First went to Bicutan to fetch Love. (I got to hug loveteam and Ren. :D OMFFFGG. I missed them so much! :D ^_^ I didn't get to hug dad 'cause he already left. :c Saadd.) and then we went to Baclaran for the mass then MOA. :D


Awesome B-bash with the people I'm super close with during internship days. :]

>.< Blurred.

Love. <3 I will always constantly miss you.

Love: Thanks for bringing Sasuke... :] Hahah. I didn't expect he was gonna be there, but he was. Choji wasn't around though. But it's good. I got to hug Sasuke. :D


Supah fun. Like equals awesome. :D FYI, I thought I was gonna be sad 'cause I'd be waiting for someone *toooooot* to text me but nah, I wasn't sad at all. Prolly missing the whole shit, but sad? Dun think so. The hugs I got from Loveteam, Ren and Sasuke are like. Boooyeah. Hella awesome. It made me forget him. ROFL.

Sasuke Baybeh! :D miss you. :]

And then there's the food. :]..

LOL. 'Cause Sasuke was too full to eat, so we opted for
Salad. :] Super Worth it.

Super Supreme Cheesy Volcano. :]

Always loved, Tropical Fizz. :]

I guess I'm the one intensifying these feelings. It's not really so bad to be without you. Like I initially thought.

There are other people around me that needs me to be that bright ball of sunshine they're used to. I can't stop shining just because you made it rain.

Theme Song of the Day: A Rocket To The Moon - Like We Used To. Ü

"Does he watch your favorite movies?

Does he hold you when you cry?

Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?

When you've seen it a million times

Does he sing to all your music,

While you dance the 'Purple Rain'?

Does he do all these things,

Like I used to?"

I think I'll be singing this for a week. :) <3 Super loves. ^_^

Etude Madness :]

Today = semi-happy; semi-sad;

Happy 'cause I got to bond with Ma Patt. :] Wahaha. We went SM mode today. So it's like... "Weee." Also told her everything about 'Dear John' while on Starbucks. :)) Sad, because... well... Same old story.


Anyway. On to the good stuff first before I go emo shit again. :)


Me and Mama Patt met at Etude House. ROFL. Super loves that place. It's like... WOWZA. Awesome things.

Etude House Bag. :)

Yes. I spent Php 524.00, just like that.

LOL. Yuuhh.  And the things inside are...

As stated in the package.

Yes. It's what it is.

:] Inside of this cutesy container 
is hand cream. :)

Box for the cutesy container --->

So cute right? :] Shopping has always been a good cure for heartbroken people. :) You get new stuff better than the boy that has left just like that. :]


Mudah F. Why can't you stay stationary like these things anyway, boy? :p

And You Let Me Down Again. :')

Last na siguro to.

After this... Tama na. I'm quitting.

LOL. I prolly looked silly if I was able to see myself from afar as I cried on the bus while staring outside the window. Didn't know reading a text could hurt that bad. But it did.

And it still does hurt.

I love you, I really do. And sadly you confuse me. I don't know if you're doing that deliberately to fish something out of me... Like some shit ego boost I usually do... But that's it.

That's the last straw. I won't make an effort to make us okay anymore, because clearly... We're not working on the same page.

Maybe I'm just a convenience. A something that provides with you with this emotional shit you need.

I'm backing off.

"The moment you settle for something for less than you deserve, you get even less than what you settled for."

I wish when I wake up tomorrow I won't have these retarded feelings anymore. After all, that's what you want. So maybe it's something I should want too.


Think I'm gonna be always there? No. Ayoko na din. Sa totoo lang. 'Cause I'm too tired of the games.


"Because it's not true that we don't know what we had till it's gone, we knew what we had... We just never thought we'd lose it."


I made myself too available. That's my mistake. To think I chose you over all the other options I had. 


You know what? I thought I had a strong fighting spirit. But you win. :') so...

I'm saying goodbye baby, and I don't plan to rewind and go back anymore.

It fuckin hurts too much. So I quit.


03/07/2011: I quit on the boy I love. Because he's such a jerk. Ü


Srsly.

=3

"You're not my first love; but I know from this point on, you're gonna be the guy I'd always look back on 'cause you're my favorite boy."

*sigh* When you accidentally meet someone... What do you call that? Destiny? Serendipity? Fate?

Surprisingly, nakita ko siya. And what are the chances. >.> Yea, he knew I was gonna be at the area, but... specifically at the mall? NO. And mas lalo naman that he does not know when I was gonna be at the escalator at the exact same moment. >.>

But wow. Hello fate. I felt those familiar shivers down my back.

And of course, you had to be there. Didn't have the nerve to look back. Seeing you from my peripheral vision was enough.

It was enough for me to know the feelings were still there. 'Cause if they weren't? I wouldn't be scared to talk and face you.

Because I knew... It'd still hurt.

It still hurts me to remember that you think you're not deserving. Maybe it's true... But gaddd... I don't fucking care.

Yung text, everything. I want you. And I know it's selfish, but I'm hoping you'd feel this "i miss you like hell" shit that I do.

Fota lang. 2 times. We had to meet 2 times by accident.