Procrastinating Techno Paper; Toy Story 3

LOL. I should seriously be reminded what happens when I cram things up. Lack of sleep and all that. But it's okay. :) Plus we lost a groupmate on the paper. But not sulking over it. Not worth it.


If she doesn't wanna work with us, then fine. :) We can manage. Just that she shouldn't go running towards us after this. Cause we, the remaining members will do the best that we can.


Halatang bitter. :p HAHAHA.


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Of course, no procrastinator would be complete without a distraction. ROFL.


Time check: 4:52 am. I just got done watching Toy Story 3. Yes. Ask about what happened with the project.


I'm saying it's going smoothly. ;) Haha. But seriously, it is. :)


Anyway back to the movie...


Oo, nakakaiyak siya. Lalo na sa ending. Wala lang. Naalala ko lang when I used to play too. Andami ko ding laruan nung bata ako.


And then you grow up. And forget them. How happy they made you then.


Emo shit over toys right now. I still have my bears and my barbie and I'm what... turning 20 years old soon. LOL.


It's me. I just can't bear parting with them.


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>.< I'm doing a lot of stuff. Shit. And I hate it. >.> And the best part? It friggin came with my period. The time when you don't even think about moving, you get a lot of stuff to do. Crap.


Anyways. Be posting prolly again tomorrow if I have the time. Or if something like an incredible bullshit happens and I have to rant about it. :p

Insecurities?

My mom borrowed my laptop awhile ago. She said she was gonna check out the list of those who passed at UP.


For those who don't know, UP is equivalent to an Ivy League school.


So I was like: "Yea, okay."


If you saw the pride that shone on my mom's face when she saw the name of her friend's daughter on the list...


She was too proud that it sort of hurt me.


And I hate it.

I Sort of Broke the Space Thing. LOL.

>.< I said I'm stopping the texting. But hella I don't think that is happening anytime soon. LOL. I really should learn to stick to what I say. >.>


But the good news is... The feelings have started to become neutral. Like they're in a safe zone right now. I'm not sure if that composure will still remain if I see him again. >.> Maybe this is just a temporary peace.

One Month Won't Be Too Long. Space.

I'm not sure if we're ever going back to how we used to be. But it's skay. Hopefully in time. I'm sort of not hoping and hoping in some small area of my heart.

I won't text anymore. Even do the 'gm' thing. I'm excluding you on the people I'm sending gms to.

Because I think it's for the best. And I'm scared that I won't get over you if I don't do this.

It's been one month since the goodbye. We still texted, but now I'm stopping it. And I'm giving myself... Till February 22. No everything. No text. No gms.

'Cause I'm scared to learn that missing you so much is hard. And it hurts. 

If I was able to choose, I wanna hug you all over again and make this pain go away.

I want you to tell me I don't need to miss you anymore because you're not going anywhere far from me.

Right now I'm trying to convince myself that these feelings are just a by product of our proximity then.

So if February 22 comes and I still have feelings then... I'll think about things more seriously.

Maybe... if I'm a better girl then... I'd allow myself to love you.

But right now... I can't.

Suspicious Activity? >.< LOL Wut.

LOL. I visited my blog's link and all of a sudden this weird message saying something like: "This blog cannot be found." And my face is... O.O WTF?


So decided to sign in to see what the fuss is about. Thought blogger was done, but apparently... another message saying: "We have detected suspicious activity on your account" came up.


What. Is this like an attempt to hack my blog? Hey. What would you want from this blog? It's filled with all my nonsense and ranting. >.<


You are sick whoever you are to want to hack my blog. :p


Anyway. That's done. :) It's okay. Got it back.


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My room is gonna be painted tomorrow and I hafta get rid of my stuff that can be a hindrance to the work to be done. :) I'm excited. I've sort of decided to do the 'playboy mansion' theme to my room. But now I'm so lazy to move stuff around. >.<


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Soundtrip: Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy; Back to December - Taylor Swift


It's amazing how he could break my heart just by missing him. I hate feeling this way about him. Like he has some hold on me.


And the surprising thing is? I don't even see him anymore. And yet he still lingers in my head.


I'm waiting to be over you. :c Because it'll hurt me every time to know we're not meant to be.


Just when I stopped looking for more... It can't be.


That's the sad thing.


"If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right."


"I'd go back to December all the time."


Because... It holds everything of why I loved you so.

Midterms Week. :]

Waha. :] Just days after I posted the 50 ways to cope with stress, stress had come running towards me. >.< :))


I wasn't asking that instantly, you know. :p


:) Anyways... :) Happy.


Midterms week starts tomorrow... And omgsh... Have not studied just yet. :) I've missed this actually. The full time student life. No internship... :] Ahh. So good. :)


11.10.2011 - I'm still not used to using the '2011' year. I keep writing down '2010'. ROFL. :) Did meh multimedia midterm. :] Satisfied with it. I guess (?) LOL. Text date with Stripes during lunch. ;) Happeh. Super happeh. :p


Punchline of the day: "You can steal the heart that's with me, but the other half is with him."


11.11.2011 - OMG. :) Hahaha. Monthsary with Honey (meh girlfriend. But no, not like what you're thinkin' you pervs.). I think we're gonna eat at Pizza Hut. Decided on that today. Excited for tomorrow. :)


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I'm not entirely worried about the midterm... But hopefully you know... It's gonna be okay.


Whew. Imma take a nap and wake up around 3-ish am. :) So I can study. ^_^

:] Oh yea.

I don't actually get stressed a lot, but anyway saw this and got interested. :)) Now I'm waiting for the next time I get stressed so I can actually apply these. :)

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The person I'm currently crushing on... Is the weirdest crush I've ever had. No. He's not the one that's weird. But it's me. :) Usually when I have a crush and they like someone else... I tend to get all emo-shit and stuff. But this one? I actually push him to the girl he likes (even though she is so not worth him. Like WTF. *barfs* It's like there's a shortage of men in her world so she tags everyone along. Whatever.)

Can I not comment anymore? Gawd. I hate her. And I am VERY CERTAIN that it is not because my crush likes her.

Besides, it's not just me that feels this animosity towards her. Other people do too. :p There is something in her that will make you feel like pulling her hair. LOL wut.

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I'm done with my homework! :D LOLz. Tomorrow I'm gonna be busy again. School and everything. :D I'm actually doing well. OMFG. Such a good start for the year. Prolly 'cause I'm done with internship so I don't have anything else to think of. :) And I'm not that exhausted anymore. I don't immediately sleep when I get home. :D *thumbs up*

>.< Hopefully I will not oversleep and be late tomorrow. :D

Late Post: 2011 :]

This year has been the most epic fail, epic win, most rollercoaster year I've ever had in my entire life. :]


There were lots of bad stuff, but there were also lots of good stuff.


Thank God that I am over with internship. :] It has been like what. A tug between heaven and hell. >.< Nevertheless, it has brought me a lot of people that I am loving and present in my life now.


Hopefully 2011 would be a better year.


And hell, this is my last year as a student. OMFG. I can't beg my rents for money anymore. >.< Crap.


2010 was when:


-> OJT started. >.< April 12 to be exact.
-> Choji, Sasuke, Love, Stripes... <3
-> Rocky and Unstable.
-> Confusing.
-> Hallway Bonding. Hugs. Mind you, tight ones. <3
-> Party year. :p Late nights out.
-> Realized I was a greater bitch than last year.


2011... Please be:


-> Can't stop wishing for more awesome-ness.
-> More parties! And bonding.
-> More text marathons. More love.
-> the year where my life turns out right.
-> the year where I am more grown up.
-> the year when I realize that it is best to choose what is right rather than what is easy. ;)


New Year's Resolution:


* To be less fatter. :D Hahaha. Omg. One year to go before the world ends. (ROFL. I am still confused as to whether I really believe it or not) I friggin gained pounds over the holidays. FCK.


* To be less crybaby. Yes I cry over little things. :p


* Spread the awesome-ness. 'Cause I try to keep it to myself every time. Wohoho.


* Love and never get tired of it.


* Learn to say "No" and stick to it.


* Wake up early. ;D (I always suck doing this. I wake up early but I don't get out of bed so I end up sleepin' anyway. Plus sometimes I hit the 'snooze' button of the alarm... so yeaa. Fail.)




I guess that pretty much should be some of the things I should start working on. Cause the more things you wanna do the less of them comes true. :] So let's start with something small.


*crosses fingers* Dear 2011. Please be an awesome year for me. *prays for luck*