Emo. :p

I think I have some sort of post retreat depression. :)) Hahaha. I haven't left everything to the past. I'm still thinking. And thinking. And then it hurts.

:c

Currently listening to: To Love Again - Dingdong Avanzado; Survive - Gabrielle

Again with the "what ifs". *sigh* I really should stop doing it. Because it's unhealthy.

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"When faced with two choices... Toss a coin. It works not because it settles the question... But in the brief moment that the coin is in the air... You suddenly know what you're hoping for."

14. Stripes. Texts.

:) Crush texted me today. :] LOL. *blush.blush* I call it a text date day. :)

Twas fun. We never really text a lot except on some cases such as he's having girl problems. But today we just bonded like hella awesome. :D I guess he's still sad about the last time he courted a girl. :c *sigh* I sort of wish that I could take back telling him what she said. But that would also be wrong, wouldn't it? After all, it was his feelings that was on the balance scale.

I was weighing options. And it just felt like he had every right to know. After all, it was him that was exerting all the efforts.

I just felt sad. The girl was turning him down for reasons well... physical reasons I refuse to elaborate because it is very very trivial.

And I told him. And he confronted her. She was forced to admit. And then everything blew out of proportion.

Sometimes I'm still thinking if I had done the right thing. Maybe... Maybe he wouldn't be so hurt like he is now. Maybe he was gonna be fine without me interfering.

It just hurts. When he's hurting I feel it too.  And I don't want to. Because then I'd have to cry.

He's happy with my group messages. Says he learns a lot. And I'm happy he said that. ^_^

Hopefully he's gonna be okay though. :c Just not with her. Someone who's gonna be able to take good care of him...

Which is not me either.

Extremes.

I'm scared to be happy at work. Yesterday was awesome happiness filled and today was... well... SUCK-ish.

>.< I knew it. Sometimes I think it's not coincidental anymore. Like hello. ALWAYS.

When you start being happy one day at work... please expect that tomorrow will sort of be a BIG BITCH.

They should do feng shui on that place to get rid of that extremity thingy with emotions.

I wanna start ranting on every single thing that had gone wrong, but I don't see the point anymore. Like why rant? Not like it will do anything to actually help the situation be less frustrating. :p

Anyway. It's a weekend. And I should not think about work at all. Because... I'm gonna be a bitch if I do so. GAWD.


Dear enemies, please just die or something. I'm actually trying to be nice and you keep testing meh patience. Please stop. Or... IMMA BITCH SLAP YOU. End of story.

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 Note to self: Please make sure you don't kill anyone. It's near Christmas and Santa might cross you out on the "I've been good" list.

Torture is OVER. :D

Love is the way life never ceases to amaze me. :] One day a roller coaster ride of emotions, the next a whirlpool that slowly sucks the energy out of you.

Today was fun. Like super fun. :) Defense is over and I can go to work all happy and giddy without any worry at all. :)

I'm pretty much excited for tomorrow. :D Last time it was overtime high time and we were all super super energized with kakulitan and madness. :p

I wanna start taking pictures. But how? :c

It's not sufficient that I freeze them memories in my head, 'cause with all the good stuff... They would take gigabytes to preserve. :D

I just love 'em friends. :D

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Dear God:

I pretty much don't know how to start thanking you for everything. >.< You completely break my fall every single time. Thanks for everything. I really don't know how to say it. Whew. Thanks. Thanks. A million thanks.