Vacation Mode. :]

To people who read my blog. :]


^__^ I might not be posting for awhile. I'm going on a vacation today; And will not be back until 2 weeks.


I'm bringing tons of stuff and my heartbreak notebook. So. I might also be posting a lot of things when I get back.


And also. Pictures.


Well, considering the idea of doing so. ;)


I think this would be a good time to gather thoughts and build everything else that might have collapsed before.




Excerpt from my hearbreak notebook:




I think my heart is always gonna be with him. I voluntarily broke it, and gave the other half to him. I'm doing better than before, but I think no matter how many days, months, and years pass and I see him again...


A part of me will always, always love him.


And I'm okay with it.


These feelings are stupid and worthy of getting angry at. They're crazy and illogical. But they're there and it's pointless to feel negative about it, because I know that used to be... they were the source of those positive fireworks I feel inside. 


And I'm deducing that it's because of that fact that I'm given a reason to cancel out all those 'supposed to exist' anger, frustration, bitterness, etc.


Also, to feel negative about those feelings would be like: regretting the fact that I've chosen to love you. And I don't.


I've written your flaws; all those unlikable things about you and thought it over and over again. And it still yields the same result: i still love you, despite everything.


I'm not seeing you, I'm not even communicating with you anymore; but the feelings... dormant, yeah. But still existing.

Epic Fails and Wins.

LOL. So I did take the test. LOLOLOL. However, before arriving at the testing area... Dozens of fail and win happenings.


Since it's a lengthy post, Imma use THE jump break. :p

Nerve-wracking.

>.> I'm gonna have to take a test with one company tomorrow and I'm really thinking about what I'm gonna do. >.>


I'm worried that it won't be okay and stuff like that.


But I'm also worried about what will happen if the exam does turns out okay. I mean... If the exam turns out okay, I'll proceed to the interview. Then if I pass everything...


I'm getting the job.


But if I get the job...


We have an out of the country trip that's pending and cannot be cancelled since this has been planned before I have even graduated.


I'll take a leave on my training period to accommodate the trip and such and such. I'll miss out on things. >.>


O.o


Wait. Why am I worrying about what will happen if I pass. LOLOL.


I don't know that.


I'll just worry about it if I DO pass.


Maybe I will not pass. Who knows.


I'm getting crazy by obsessively thinking. K?


*breathe*

Weight Rants

You do not ever mention to a girl that she looks overweight or is gaining weight.

Like EVER.


Now I understand and know what it feels like.


It sort of affects our self esteem and shit like that. Especially when we're NOT that fat all. If I was bordering on obese and I cannot fit through the door (or even half as big as such person), then you can prolly tactlessly point it out to me and I would understand.


Hurt, but I would understand. K?

Yes. My name is "FatKid" but I am NOT THAT FAT. People act like I'm gonna die out of clogging my arteries with fat when they see me.


They give terms like: obese, overweight, etc...


Unbelievable.


And as much as I want to post my picture to prove what I'm saying, doing so will break the anonymity of my blog.




Whoever said I was fat and overweight awhile ago, FUCK YOU PEOPLE.


'Cause I know I'm not as fat as what you're saying and pointing out. I've long put up with it, but now I'm ticked off and I'm saying it's


BULLSHIT.


You act like you know how fat I am better than me who sees myself naked everyday before I go shower.


People have the right to be comfortable in whatever body shape they have.


Walang basagan ng trip kung keri naman nila ang katawan nila. Keber mo ba?


Some people just become the reason why I tend to become weight and calorie conscious. Putang ina.


Oo, PUTANG INA MO TALAGA.

Of Sinkholes and Such.

So I'm actually staring at this photo and I'm wondering what is down that circle darker blue colored part of this I dunno... ocean?


And I'm thinking if i lost something in the ocean on this part... Will I never find it again? Like ever?


And where does this, well... sinkhole (Nyahaha. I googled what this is.) lead to? Does anyone know?

The one above is an even scarier picture.

Simply for the fact that it's on LAND.

If you happen to fall inside of anything like this one... You prolly won't be found ever again.

Or you fall like... endlessly. O.O

But if it does have a bottom, hopefully you won't land on your face dead but instead, float meters before you hit ground and ... Just like Alice you end up in Wonderland.


LOL.

Just a theory.

The Feeling.

"That certain feeling when you finally realize how much of a jerk the guy you like is."




--Have you been freakin' blind all these time, bitch? He's not a knight in shining armor. Mistaken. Just a retard in tin foil.

Thinking.

I'm thinking if I should post what I'm thinking right now.


Srsly. Thinking.

I guess this should be enough to convey what I'm actually feeling. For now.

Text Post 4/14/2011

"I will stop loving you when an apple fruit grows on a mango tree."

Fate. Again.

"Fate is an elegant, cold hearted whore. She loves salting my wounds; yes, she enjoys nothing more."

One month when 10 pm comes tonight. :] Nyahaha. One month without you. :) And I'm surprisingly, doing great. :)


I still love you. I still do. :] Normally, I lose the feelings but I don't know why it's still existing even without you around.


So then maybe boy, I do love you more than I had given myself credit for.


***


I just had to grab a Hot Chocolate from DOMO after dinner yesterday.


And voila, look at the Mr. Barista working there.


He looks somewhat like you. And he also shares the same name. (Which is like WTF.)


I remember the day you had to be 'accidentally' behind me in the escalator. O.o


Tsk tsk. Fate is evil. She just had to remind me that the next day marks the one month of no communication whatsoever with you.


Hope you're doing well though.


Well I know you are. I just dropped by your facebook page. :]


You look so fat though. LOL. :p Which makes me wanna lose weight more 'cause you look so friggin'... well... not you? Since you're fat... you're prolly well... right? :)) :p


:c LOL. Now I'm wondering if I should text you to tell you that you seem to be putting on weight and it's so not sexy looking on you? :)) XD But nah. Then you'd know I've visited your facebook page and your ego would be running your brain again and you'd be like: 'little girl is in love with me like hell'. :p


Hopefully you got you know... err, scales at your home and you'd be like checking your weight every now and then. Unless you don't really notice what I noticed in the picture. :p


Nyahaha *spongebob laugh* Fatboy. :p I'm not really being mean to you. :] In fact, I miss you more because of it.


So if you happen to stumble on this blog... Well. I'm sorry for this post.


Not really. :p


ah. Dear boy. I miss those moments again. :]


You should hug me. Again. And again. And again.


Like you used to.

Epic Day = Elaborate.

"But 'till the morning sun, you're mine... All mine. Play the music low, and sway to the rhythm of love."

Now Playing: Rhythm of Love - Plain White T's. Ü


LOL. I dunno but I am in love with the song. ;) It's sweet.


Anyway as promised I'm gonna tell about what happened that epic day. Well not really everything 'cause I'm too lazy to type. :p


That epic day happened 'cause I made sure I got some paperwork done so I won't be that bothered anymore when I start working.


I'm getting the hang of commuting slash travelling somewhere I don't really know. :] Like I get lucky and I don't get lost. I find the place where I'm supposed to go to in about 15-30 mins. from arriving at the place. (Okay, 15-30 mins because it's usually a long walk, k? And I'm like turtle slow in walking sometimes.)


And out of the 3 paperworks I'm supposed to do, I've done 1. And that 1 is a big thing k 'cause that was the longest. :)) Happy.


2 to go on Monday. :)


Then we watched a Soprano recital. :] Like omfg. It's so awesome. Like yeah I've seen it in movies, and games but you know... having to hear it live is like... O.O WHAT KIND OF LUNGS DOES SHE HAVE???!


We got home like super late. :] And I met Tippy. ♥♥♥ She was the most awesome part of that day. No, she's not my age. Older. Has a kid already. I think she's around late 30s to early 40s.


I dunno. Everything I liked was with her. Thumbs up.


Tippy so awesome. :p @_@


11:11 Make a wish. ;)