Vacation Mode. :]

To people who read my blog. :]


^__^ I might not be posting for awhile. I'm going on a vacation today; And will not be back until 2 weeks.


I'm bringing tons of stuff and my heartbreak notebook. So. I might also be posting a lot of things when I get back.


And also. Pictures.


Well, considering the idea of doing so. ;)


I think this would be a good time to gather thoughts and build everything else that might have collapsed before.




Excerpt from my hearbreak notebook:




I think my heart is always gonna be with him. I voluntarily broke it, and gave the other half to him. I'm doing better than before, but I think no matter how many days, months, and years pass and I see him again...


A part of me will always, always love him.


And I'm okay with it.


These feelings are stupid and worthy of getting angry at. They're crazy and illogical. But they're there and it's pointless to feel negative about it, because I know that used to be... they were the source of those positive fireworks I feel inside. 


And I'm deducing that it's because of that fact that I'm given a reason to cancel out all those 'supposed to exist' anger, frustration, bitterness, etc.


Also, to feel negative about those feelings would be like: regretting the fact that I've chosen to love you. And I don't.


I've written your flaws; all those unlikable things about you and thought it over and over again. And it still yields the same result: i still love you, despite everything.


I'm not seeing you, I'm not even communicating with you anymore; but the feelings... dormant, yeah. But still existing.