I'm not sure if we're ever going back to how we used to be. But it's skay. Hopefully in time. I'm sort of not hoping and hoping in some small area of my heart.
I won't text anymore. Even do the 'gm' thing. I'm excluding you on the people I'm sending gms to.
Because I think it's for the best. And I'm scared that I won't get over you if I don't do this.
It's been one month since the goodbye. We still texted, but now I'm stopping it. And I'm giving myself... Till February 22. No everything. No text. No gms.
'Cause I'm scared to learn that missing you so much is hard. And it hurts.
If I was able to choose, I wanna hug you all over again and make this pain go away.
I want you to tell me I don't need to miss you anymore because you're not going anywhere far from me.
Right now I'm trying to convince myself that these feelings are just a by product of our proximity then.
So if February 22 comes and I still have feelings then... I'll think about things more seriously.
Maybe... if I'm a better girl then... I'd allow myself to love you.
But right now... I can't.
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