Faith.

Matthew 11:28-30: ²⁸ Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

I remember Father Dan's sermon awhile ago. I sort of miss how my faith was back then in highschool.


I don't really know where I stand right now when it comes to faith. Or rather, I couldn't really put an exact number on how far I'd fallen from before. Yes, I do believe in Him. But what is now is different from what was.


Before, my heart relied upon Him with everything it had.


Happy. Sad. Everything-- Every thought and feeling.


And I sort of miss it.


Everything wasn't easy way back, but I found solace and consolation when I prayed.


Right now? I'm this 'independent' child who couldn't even open up an honest thought or prayer.


I don't know. But I feel like I have to hide something.


Even though it's clear He can see everything.




I want to go home, God. I really do. :'c


But I don't know how. Hopefully, You'd fetch me.


I now know where this void in my heart is coming from. It's coming from being without You.


And it's starting to hurt.