I just read a past post of mine. Not in this blog, but I happened to stumble on it when I viewed past sites.
And I loved it.
It had so much of everything that I believe I lack at the moment. It was real, it was true, and it had so much heart it in that I drove myself to tears upon reading it.
It lacked luster in English, wasn't so perfect in grammar... But I still loved it just as much. I wish I could write the same way again.
I tried writing at work and all that, and found it to be good once I read it again... But my mind keeps on replaying back to that Alice in Wonderland scene:
The Mad Hatter: You're not the same as you were before You were much more..."muchier" You've lost your "muchness"
Alice Kingsley: My "muchness"?
The Mad Hatter: [Points to Alice's heart] In there.
If you don't know that scene, well you suck and you better watch Alice in Wonderland and replay that in your DVD over and over again. Jk. :))
It was heavy, that scene is. No matter how little other people says it is in the movie, it was something that was deeply rooted in me. I don't know and I better figure out soon when all these started: When did I start reserving some part of me only for myself? To write half hearted realities to fool other people? To write (although not 100% perfect English but almost) only to find it lacking in the department of emotions?
*sigh*
Where are you muchness? Where have you gone to?
And I loved it.
It had so much of everything that I believe I lack at the moment. It was real, it was true, and it had so much heart it in that I drove myself to tears upon reading it.
It lacked luster in English, wasn't so perfect in grammar... But I still loved it just as much. I wish I could write the same way again.
I tried writing at work and all that, and found it to be good once I read it again... But my mind keeps on replaying back to that Alice in Wonderland scene:
The Mad Hatter: You're not the same as you were before You were much more..."muchier" You've lost your "muchness"
Alice Kingsley: My "muchness"?
The Mad Hatter: [Points to Alice's heart] In there.
If you don't know that scene, well you suck and you better watch Alice in Wonderland and replay that in your DVD over and over again. Jk. :))
It was heavy, that scene is. No matter how little other people says it is in the movie, it was something that was deeply rooted in me. I don't know and I better figure out soon when all these started: When did I start reserving some part of me only for myself? To write half hearted realities to fool other people? To write (although not 100% perfect English but almost) only to find it lacking in the department of emotions?
*sigh*
Where are you muchness? Where have you gone to?
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