Is it when things get easier?
Is it when you can't remember anymore?
Hindi ko rin alam actually. At ayokong sabihin na "over na ako" when I'm not really certain at all. Maybe on the process, but not stating 'really over'. I'm not saying it because mahirap nang mausog. :p
I'm afraid of doing the whole 'relapse' thing again if ever I'm really getting better.
Medyo nanghihinayang though. Some part of me feels that way.
Kasi gusto ko pa din na kahit papaano, we're friends. Pero I guess malabo yon.
Ang alam ko lang as of the moment?
Okay nako kahit sabihin mo pang magkita kami.
Wala na yung fear unlike before.
May twinge pa din of 'missing him' pero it's not so bothersome anymore.
Hindi ko na rin masyado maramdaman ang gravity ng mga past texts niya.
I'm okay with the fact na he's interested in pursuing somebody. Hopefully, genuine yan and not due to some sort of side interest or whatsoever. :p (Just saying.)
At bakit?
Keyword: Superhuman. Absorption. :))
LELS.
6.17.2011: Saw dad, loveteam, Ren, Love and everyone else. :] Starbucks date with Love after her work. :] Today... everything was so fucking worth it. :) Dad's hug felt so so so so so so good. It was comforting. It was everything I had pictured out.
Etong mga taong to? They're meant to be in my life. And I'm thankful for it.
If I had the choice of doing things differently... I'd still choose the same choices I did before. Just so I could get what is "now".
It's because these are the people I'm supposed to be fighting so hard to keep in my life.
Kaya Love... Hindi mo man mabasa to... Pero... :)
Love,
I'm not sure if you know how much I love you. Pero know that I do. So much. I'm not leaving. And as long as you're trying no matter how hard everything gets... I can promise I'm staying.
Thank you kasi... We're perfect together.
I did not only get an Ate, but also a bestfriend.
Stay in my life, Love. Kasi... mahal na mahal kita. :') Sobra.
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